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You’re here because something about sex stopped being simple.

Maybe it was marriage. Maybe it was power. Maybe it was realizing that everything you were taught about desire—who gets it, who controls it, who pays for it—was quietly political the entire time.

This space exists for readers who have already noticed that pleasure is never just about pleasure.

Monica Craiyon is not interested in helping you “feel sexy” or “heal your relationship” or “communicate better in bed.” She is interested in what happens when women notice that their bodies are regulated long before they are desired, and that desire itself has been conscripted into systems of control—marriage, religion, respectability, race, capitalism, and the law.

The essays you’ll find here move deliberately between the erotic and the analytical. They begin in the body and end in power. Sometimes they start with a scene—something intimate, private, almost embarrassing in its honesty—and then widen outward, tracing how that moment didn’t happen in isolation. How it was shaped by policy. By patriarchy. By the quiet expectations placed on women to absorb discomfort gracefully and call it love.

This is not a manifesto about liberation through sex. It’s an examination of why sex was never neutral to begin with.

You’ll see recurring themes: how women are taught to confuse endurance with intimacy, how emotional safety becomes erotic precisely because it is so rare, how “choice” collapses under coercive systems, how pleasure becomes dangerous the moment it stops serving someone else’s narrative. You’ll also see humor, because nothing terrifies power structures more than women who can name the pattern and laugh while doing it.

Read slowly. Let yourself feel implicated. Discomfort here is not a bug; it’s part of the diagnostic process.

If you’re looking for reassurance, this may not be the place. If you’re looking for clarity—about your body, your politics, your hunger, your refusals—you’re exactly where you need to be.

Start Here: Where to begin

If you only do one thing: read the Manifesto Index first.

Read the Manifesto (the canon) → [Manifesto Index]
Find your entry point → [Field Guide]
Community boundaries → House Rules
What paid unlocks → [Paid Welcome / What Paid Unlocks]
Ask Monica (anonymous) → [Ask Monica]
Private edition → [Private / Mirror]